This has been a rather curious endeavor, working at a state office that provides assistance to several disadvantaged groups — and being able to see things on the other side of that reinforced wall. It is an interesting perspective. And I think having a background (however limited) in disability rights and other issues of social justice helps me understand far better what is going on. I’m not sure about you, but I can hold two opposing ideas in my head at the same time and manage to see the truth in both of them. I am large; I contain multitudes. There are honestly many things that are beyond our ability to fix, address, or really do anything other than acknowledge, if that. Sometimes, there is nothing we can do. And yet — and yet. Are the way things are the way things have to be? When the way things are means our rights cannot be fulfilled, must we abdicate them? Are our minds, our worlds, so limited?
I think I’m glad this is a limited-term job; I am still debating myself over whether I can really handle this. But for the time being, well, I will. It’s who I am. And honestly, I love it. I only wish my body allowed me the option of doing anything else too.
So this is what I have been doing. I’m doing my best to restore, slowly and deliberately, a careful balance to my life. Come say hello.
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